Do you trust ME now?

So if you have a TV and turn it on even once in a while you've probably seen the Verizon commercial where the guy has a cell phone and takes it to weird places and says "Can you hear me now?" Well the other night I went to the Haven (kind of the local newman center) for praise and worship. As we sang the first couple of songs like "Blessed be Your Name" and "Everlasting God" I had this distinct picture in my head. It was Jesus showing up at different points of my day and life saying the phrase "Do you trust Me now?" in a way very reminiscent of the commercial.
God often uses humor to speak to me and at first I did think it was funny thinking..."very cute, God...I get it, I get it." But then as I thought about it I got a little bothered by it. "Lord, haven't I lived my life in a way that says I trust You? Haven't I given up much for You...to spread your Gospel...to sing your praise? I've moved across the country more than once to be where I thought You wanted me. I've lived on next to nothing at times and I haven't regretted a minute of it. Are You still really asking me this question and bringing about circumstances in my life to prove my answer?"
Yes, I was being a bit of a whiner. Things at Reach are crazy right now and one big trust activity at the moment. We need more team members, more money, more staff to get all the work done and we have to relocate the ministry after training/by the beginning of October. This on top of the things I have going on in my own life makes me think...enough already! Enough is what my weary spirit is saying as I try to be strong and believe.
So the question from Jesus, "Do you trust Me now?" is quite appropriate. I just didn't realize I needed to be reminded that He is trustworthy. He will take care of us. He has a plan even if I can't see it. Even when I don't feel like it's true it is true. I really do believe that.
So my answer to Jesus' question, "Do you trust Me now?" is "yes, Lord, of course I do. You have not failed me yet. You have always made good on Your promise... "And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28
If anyone is actually reading this please keep Reach in your prayers. Pray Rosary's for us if you can. Pray we would be open to the solutions God will send our way. Pray that we will grow in faith and that this time of chaos will end soon. There are young people out there who need to hear the good news Christ offers them...this is what we want to be about come training in August.
God Bless you and your day.
Laura